Coz It’s kinda... Illogic Magic

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn’t?

Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn’t?

You fall deeper with each passing day.

But try to hide it in every possible day.

You don’t choose, right?

It just happened.

As a sudden...

The feeling that is beyond your control.

The feeling that you can’t deny.

It’s just unexplainable.

Coz it’s sometimes illogic, yet a magic.

And that’s that.

What do you call this?

Remember October

The remaining drop of water was being the companion my way long.

It landed on my phone screen;

My Oxford Advanced Learner’s dictionary;

My laptop case;

At last...on my cheek.

So I couldn’t differ whether it’s rain drop nor my tears.

The warm kitchen sounds calling me.

After hearing my stomach growling,

Then my feet, compromised to get there.

Bringing home a lot of works,

Made contemplating quiet a while in this cozy room

Searching a proper dictions to create such good word order

To write kinda long of babbling.

Well, this lots of stuffs shouldn’t be with me.

If there was no ‘unknown’ something

Caused by ‘unknown’ someone

From ‘unknown’ somewhere

Hit perfectly

With ‘unknown’ reason

Made ‘unknown’ feeling...

It wouldn’t happen.

But... It did

So, I could do nothing with this.

Is it a mistake?

And the “Spirit” Carries on... *eh

I’ve just remembered the thing that happened about a few moments ago. It went to English final exam at that time. Like how it used to be, we always studied together at the night before.

The time and place were fixed, and we’re there. We chose one classroom we considered a comfortable place to study at 8 o’clock.

It’s about few minutes past eight at night. We started. And about forty minutes toward... suddenly the lamp went out.

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Oh, God, it’s only a little chapter more remaining. Ah, come on... please... pretty please...

Some of students were back to dorm. Yet, look out there! Some of them kept staying there, outside classroom, hoping it would end soon. Well, I asked them then, “So, what we’re gonna do then? In a situation like this...”

One that I couldn’t believe was... With their mesmerizing eyes, said then, “We’ll be here.” Well, yea... they chose to stay, continued studying. Studied in the dark. More than that...they used flashlight ––that they borrowed from someone else–– as the light. Directed it to where I moved when they didn’t understand something that I tried to explain. I apreciated, I admired their spirit to learn :’)

We’re done with it! And the result...It’s deserved with what we have fought for...

I Miss the Missing Pieces...

True friends, Taekwondo, EOS, EC, dearest ones, and all memories about.

I miss them...

Have you ever felt you miss something, someone that truly really means so much for you?

I bet you have.

How it feels?

Sometimes it feels like apart thousands miles.

Somehow, it feels warm inside coz you know that they're close to your heart.

Time feels to crawl when you miss them, rait?

Missing someone is not about how long it has been since you have seen them last or the amount of time you last talked. It is about the moment when you are doing and you wish they were right there next to you.

And...

Have you ever felt missing someone who's actually standing a few feet in front of you but you couldn't reach them?

It's not about distance at all. Near, far, it's personally relative.

On my personal view, when I can't hear your heart beat, it just simply means you're far enough from me.

I'm just waiting to say...

Best Part of Melbourne the Novel (Verse #1)

It’s all about friendship...

Hi, dear friend over there!

It has been a very long time we don’t see each other. How's life been treating you? I’ll be always waiting your arrival in the “City of Hope” (If only I'm still being here in couple days more). I keep your promise.

This post is specially dedicated for you. I’ve given you my words, and this is now I prove it.

I took some parts of these writing from Track 6: Collide. It just because it’s so you...

Basically, all about what I wanna say, I’ve written on the rainbow paper I gave to you before you leave.

Hey, wait a sec! You promise me you'll be here with me. Accompany me. Through these all together. But now, how dare you! You owe me one for leaving me alone here... Remember! I will go and find you to make you pay this... *lol*

Well, here we go...

“I’m surprised, many good things happened to my best buddy. She doesn’t go and find good things. Good things go and find her. Well, not to blame, if there are a lot of girls don’t like her, just because ‘she just happens to be lucky’. She has a cool part time job.  Yeah, as her friend, I might be the one who don’t consider it as a big deal. It’s not a mistake if I was not born to be her, I’m not her, and I don’t need to be her. She’s kind, indeed. Between us, it’s not important to discuss who’s beautiful, who’s smart, and so... We’re friends, we’re buddies, we’re sisters. We support each other. When one’s down, another strengthen... We never fight for some unnecessary thing unworthy to fight for... Although, we have a different taste on every single thing. From a tiny thing to the huge one. But, we never take it as a problem that will burden our relationship. Once, or twice, we’ve ever fought for a very tiny thing, but it doesn’t last for long time. It comes to a joke, then...”

Dear, you...

I miss you, I really do...

...although sometimes you are really annoying v(^^,)

After Class...

One afternoon, there’s always one student who used to stay last in the class room, having little chat with the teacher about the subject, out of subject, small thing, big thing, important thing, not important thing, lil bit important thing, yeah...anything,  umm... everything maybe...

Student       : Miss, why you gave this material?

Teacher       : Because this is one we need to master by the end of this semester.

Student       : You know?

Teacher       : No.

Student       : The timing you delivered this material was so perfect.

Teacher       : Perfect, how?

Student       : It was about what I experienced a few days ago.

Teacher       : Oh, is it?

Student       : It is...

Teacher       : You lose someone...?

Student       : No...

Teacher       : So...

Student       : It’s not me.

Teacher       : Then...

Student       : It’s my friend.

Teacher       : Oh...

Student       : What do you think I should do?

Teacher       : Why you ask me?

Student       : Because I think you know what I have to do.

Teacher       : Just give your symphaty.

Student       : But I don’t know how to say.

Teacher       : Just choose what I gave to you.

Student       : Should I?

Teacher       : You asked me how, I have answered, and now you’re still confused. Ah, you are so confusing.

Student       : The matter is... it has been a long time we’re not connected.

Teacher       : Ah! Excuse me? Wait a sec... Tell me now... That person must be so special for you, huh? *teasing*

Student       : No, not anymore.

Teacher       : Not anymore? So, it used to be... haha...

Student     : Formerly, yes, we’re so close, even our parents... But, it’s just that... You know... There’s no special feeling... We’re just friends, okay... No more...

Teacher       : Ahh...seriously?!

Student       : Why you don’t believe in me?

Teacher       : Did I say that?

Student       : You didn’t say that, but your eyes did.

Teacher       : Haha... Coz your face didn’t show that it’s over.

Student       : How you can say that?

Teacher       : Coz I can read your face.

Student       : Really?

Teacher       : Wanna prove?

Student       : Although I give you a happy face but actually I’m not?

Teacher     : Heeeyyyy... I'm accustomed to several fake facial expressions. Lots... Many... So, I’m so familiar with the truth lays behind.

Student       : But, believe me, Miss... Since I’ve been here, I don’t care with those kind of unimportant thing. I just wanna focus on my study... tahfidz,... Yeah...that’s all... No more...

Teacher       : You don’t need to say those things to me, just prove that you are.

Student       : *Smile* You know what?!

Teacher       : No.

Student       : Teacher who can read their students could be a good friend I think J

Dear, Allah...

I don’t know where destiny will lead me to,

Where the path will bring me to.

It’s all Yours,

No power beyond.

I trust You...

What the answer will be,

It’s Your way to lead me close to You.

I trust You...

Where will I be,

It’s Your right You send me to.

~I’ll do my best, and I believe, Allah will do the rest~